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Jacob Keller -- Preferences and Trivia

Jacob Keller was not the person most people thought he was. The silence, the scars, the jaw set like concrete, the body that flinched first and processed second -- people saw those things and built a narrative: damaged, difficult, closed. The narrative was not wrong. It was incomplete. Behind the wall was a man who noticed everything and remembered all of it, who showed love through observation and action because words had never been his reliable instrument, who was funnier than anyone expected, gentler than anyone assumed, and more romantic than anyone would have believed if they hadn't seen it themselves. The disconnect between who Jake appeared to be and who Jake actually was lived in the details -- the ones most people never got close enough to see.

Food and Drink

Jake's relationship with food carried the full weight of his history. Food insecurity in foster care and at Robert's meant that his body had learned, before his conscious mind had any say in it, that food was unreliable -- present one day, absent the next, always contingent on someone else's willingness to provide it. The Westons rewired this slowly, through years of consistent meals and a kitchen that never locked and a refrigerator that was always full. Julia's cooking became the taste of safety. Nathan's burgers became the taste of being claimed.

He was not adventurous with food. He ate what he knew, what was safe, what his body had agreed to tolerate. New foods required advance warning and the option to decline without explanation, accommodations the Westons had figured out by his second month in the house and that Ava and Elliot honored without ever needing to be told.

Comfort Foods

Julia Weston's everything. Mac and cheese with sharp cheddar and Gruyere. Nathan's burgers with the secret seasoning. Collard greens. Cornbread from the cast iron. The banana pudding hidden behind the lemonade pitcher. These were not just foods Jake liked -- they were the first meals he'd ever eaten in a house where no one was going to take them away.

Chocolate. Jake adored chocolate with an intensity that surprised people who assumed the quiet, austere pianist didn't have indulgences. Before the Westons, it was whatever he could get -- the gas station candy bars, the convenience store bags of M&Ms, the Skittles he'd stolen from the Curtis Bay corner store as a kid (not chocolate, but the same category: sugar as proof of agency). After Juilliard, after the career, after money stopped being a question, the cheap stuff was replaced by the good stuff -- real chocolate, dark or milk or white, he wasn't picky about type as long as it was quality. His desk always had a bar within reach. Clara knew this and exploited it ruthlessly: "Papa, can I have some chocolate?" worked on Jake the way nothing else did, because he could not say no to sharing the one indulgence he'd never had to earn through suffering.

Go-To Orders

Black coffee. Strong, hot, no additions. Jake and Logan had identical coffee orders, which Charlie considered evidence of a shared character flaw.

At restaurants, Jake ordered the simplest thing on the menu. Not because he lacked taste but because the act of choosing from a large menu -- too many options, too many variables, the social pressure of a server waiting -- triggered the ADHD paralysis that made his mind go blank. Ava learned to narrow it to two options before they arrived. Elliot learned to order for him with a raised eyebrow that meant "this okay?" and Jake's nod that meant "yes, thank you for not making me do that."

Cooking

Jake didn't cook. Not because he couldn't -- he was precise with his hands and followed instructions exactly -- but because the kitchen had never been a safe space in any of the homes before the Westons, and by the time Julia's kitchen rewired that association, cooking was Julia's domain and Jake's role was peeling potatoes and staying useful without being looked at. He did this for years. It was his contribution, his way of being in the room without being the center of it, and Julia never once asked him to do more or less than he wanted to.

In his own home with Ava and Elliot, he could manage breakfast: eggs (scrambled, always scrambled), toast, coffee. The routine was the point. The same thing every morning, in the same order, the predictability a form of self-regulation that looked like habit but was actually architecture.

Will Not Touch

Tomato on a burger. Not the tomato itself -- he'd eat it sliced on the side. On the burger, the texture was wrong: the slippery skin against the meat, the way the seeds displaced. Nathan figured this out by November of the first year and never put tomato on Jake's burger again, just sliced it separately on the plate. The accommodation was silent and permanent, and Jake noticed and never forgot it.

Anything with a mushy, indeterminate texture -- overcooked vegetables, oatmeal, applesauce. His sensory processing demanded that food have a definable texture. Things that were neither solid nor liquid triggered a gag response that was involuntary and immediate.

Food Hot Takes

Jake did not have food opinions the way Charlie and Logan had food opinions. He had food boundaries, which were non-negotiable and not up for discussion, and he had food preferences, which he rarely stated but which the people who loved him had memorized through observation. The closest Jake came to a food hot take was the position that gas station coffee was fine and the elaborate pour-over rituals Logan's Howard friends practiced were "a lot of effort for bean water." Logan, who drank his coffee black and simple, agreed but wouldn't say so in front of Aaron.

Music

Music was not a preference for Jake. It was his primary language -- the thing he reached for when words failed, the thing that stayed when everything else left, the way he processed emotions his mouth couldn't hold. His relationship to music-as-listening was different from his relationship to music-as-playing: playing was expression, communication, survival. Listening was environmental -- it shaped the space around him, managed his sensory state, and functioned as the closest thing Jake had to meditation.

He listened almost exclusively to instrumental music. Vocals were too much -- the human voice carried too many variables, too much emotional information that his brain couldn't not process. Instrumental music let him control the input. Piano (Chopin, Debussy, Ravel, Satie, Liszt), orchestral, and ambient were his mainstays. The Chopin Etudes were not just music to Jake; they were the soundtrack of every significant emotional moment of his life. Op. 10, No. 3 -- the Tristesse -- was the piece that played the night he texted Charlie for the first time. It was the piece that sounded like someone trying to say something they didn't have words for, and Jake had spent his whole life in that exact condition.

Guilty Pleasures

He would never admit that he liked Anderson .Paak. Logan had played "Come Down" in the car so many times on the drive to Howard that Jake's body had learned the drum pattern against his will, and he occasionally caught himself tapping it on his thigh during practice breaks. If Charlie ever found out, Jake would have to move to another country.

Will Fight You About

Jake did not fight about music in conversation. He fought about it at the piano. If someone played a piece incorrectly -- wrong tempo, wrong phrasing, wrong dynamic interpretation -- Jake's jaw did the thing, and the correction came not as words but as Jake sitting down and playing it the way it was supposed to sound. The demonstration was the argument. He never explained why his interpretation was correct. He just played it, and the room understood.

Karaoke Song

No. Absolutely not. Under no circumstances. Jake would leave the building. Jake would leave the city. The suggestion alone made his jaw lock. Charlie had tried once, early in their Juilliard friendship, and the look Jake gave him was described by witnesses as "the face of a man considering whether a murder conviction was worth it."

Colors and Textures

Colors They Gravitate Toward

Jake did not think about color. His wardrobe was functional: gray, black, navy, dark green -- whatever was clean, whatever was soft, whatever didn't draw attention. He dressed to disappear, or more accurately, he dressed to not be noticed, which was a survival skill from childhood that had become aesthetic by default. The one exception was the occasional Howard hoodie he'd stolen from Logan, which was maroon and cream, and which he wore not for the color but because it smelled like the Weston house and was soft enough that his skin didn't protest.

Textures They Seek Out

Piano keys. The smooth acrylic or ivory under his fingertips was the single most grounding texture in Jake's world. His hands knew the weight of each key, the resistance, the exact distance between them, the way the surface warmed under sustained contact. When Jake was overwhelmed, his fingers found piano keys or mimed them on whatever surface was available -- his thigh, a table edge, the arm of a chair. The motion was the regulation.

Worn cotton. Anything that had been washed enough times to lose its stiffness -- Logan's old T-shirts, hoodies softened past recognition, the blankets Julia kept in the hall closet that had been through a decade of use. New fabric was an intrusion. Worn fabric was an agreement between the material and his skin.

Cool, smooth surfaces. Wood, stone, the lacquered body of the Kawai. Predictable textures that stayed where he expected them. His hand on the piano's case was a stim he didn't know he was doing half the time.

Deep pressure. Luke's seventy-five pounds pressed against his leg. Ava leaning into his side. Elliot's arm across his chest in bed. The weighted blanket the Westons gave him for Christmas that he used every night for the rest of his life. Pressure told his body where it was in space when his proprioception was overloaded, and the relief was immediate and physical.

Textures They Avoid

Tags. Cut out of every garment immediately. Julia started buying tagless clothing for him without comment by his third month in the house. Ava continued the practice. The accommodation was invisible and non-negotiable.

Stiff or new denim. The rigidity, the seams, the way the fabric refused to bend with his body. Jake wore soft pants, joggers, or broken-in jeans that had been washed past any structural memory.

Wet fabric against skin. Not water itself -- the sensation of wet cloth clinging was unbearable, a full-body sensory alarm that demanded immediate removal. Getting caught in rain without a change of clothes was a crisis-level event that looked, from the outside, like a man getting annoyed about wet jeans but was, from the inside, every nerve ending screaming.

Glossy coated paper. The squeak of fingers on the smooth surface went through him like a needle. He used matte-finish staff paper exclusively and would leave a room if someone was handling a magazine with coated pages near him.

Hats. Any kind -- beanies, caps, anything on his head. The pressure against his scalp, the confinement, the way the fabric sat on his hair. He wouldn't wear them even in winter, which meant Jake Keller walked through New York Januarys bare-headed and cold rather than endure the sensation of something sitting on his skull. This was not stubbornness. It was his nervous system drawing a line and his conscious mind choosing not to fight it.

Aesthetic Preferences

Jake's spaces were spare, clean, and controlled. Not minimalist as a design choice but minimalist as a necessity -- too many objects in a room created too many variables, too much visual noise, too many things competing for the attention his brain couldn't stop distributing. His rooms had the piano, the bed, what he needed, and nothing more. Every object earned its presence. Nothing was decorative.

The exception was Clara's drawings, which covered the refrigerator, the wall by his desk, and the inside of his piano bench. He could not throw away a single one. Ava had started rotating them to prevent the house from becoming wallpapered entirely in crayon, but the ones near the piano stayed permanent.

Scents

Jake registered smell with autistic intensity -- not all smells, but the ones that mattered hit him at a depth most people didn't experience. Scent was memory at a cellular level for Jake, and the associations were permanent and involuntary.

Comforting / Favorite

Julia's kitchen. Hickory smoke from Nathan's grill. Coffee -- the smell of it brewing, not flavored, not fancy, just the dark, bitter, simple smell of coffee in a pot, which was the Weston kitchen at 6 AM and the first signal that the house was awake and the day was starting in a place that was safe.

The inside of a piano. Wood and felt and the faint metallic sweetness of the strings. The Kawai's case had a specific smell that was inseparable from composing, from the hours at the keyboard where Jake's mind was quiet and his body was still and the only thing that existed was the music.

Rosin. The cedar-amber smell of rosin on a bow, which was not his instrument but Clara's -- his daughter played cello, and the smell of her practice room, the rosin dust on her fingers when she climbed into his lap after a session, was the smell of Clara being his. Of something he'd made that was good.

Associated with People or Places

The Weston kitchen was hickory and cornbread and the lavender diffuser that Julia kept on the windowsill. Logan was clean cotton and the faint antiseptic of hand sanitizer (the T1D habit, always sanitizing before testing or dosing). Charlie was candles and whatever product was in his curls and the underneath-everything medicinal note of the GJ tube site. Ava was something floral and warm that Jake couldn't name but could identify blindfolded. Elliot was sawdust and soap and the Georgia clay smell that never fully left his skin.

Cannot Stand

Cigarette smoke. Not because of health concerns but because it was Robert's apartment. The stairwell in Curtis Bay. The couch. The kitchen when Robert was drinking and smoking at the same time. The smell bypassed Jake's conscious mind and went straight to his body, and the body's response was immediate: jaw lock, hands fist, the adrenaline spike of a system that remembered what that smell meant even when the danger was twenty years gone.

Artificial air freshener. The cloying chemical sweetness that was supposed to mask other smells but only layered on top of them. Foster homes had used it to cover cigarette smoke, cooking grease, mildew, the smell of too many people in too small a space. The combination of artificial freshener over real unpleasantness was a specific olfactory signature of institutional neglect, and Jake's body knew it.

Shows, Movies, and Media

Jake did not watch television. This was not a position or a preference -- it was a sensory reality. The flickering light, the unpredictable volume changes, the emotional demands of following a narrative that someone else controlled -- all of it cost more than it provided. Music was his media. The piano was his screen.

He absorbed Charlie's shows by proximity at Juilliard, the way you absorb a roommate's music through a shared wall. He could tell you the plot of several Big Bang Theory episodes and multiple Love Island seasons without ever having chosen to watch either. Charlie's commentary was more entertaining than the shows themselves, and Jake had listened to it the way he listened to everything Charlie did: with the quiet, complete attention of a man who had decided this person was worth hearing.

He liked documentaries about nature. Planet Earth, specifically, because the narration was calm, the visuals were predictable in their beauty, and the animals didn't require him to track social dynamics or interpret facial expressions. He watched these on his laptop with headphones, usually before bed, the controlled input serving as a sensory wind-down.

The one movie Jake watched voluntarily, repeatedly, and with full emotional investment was The Piano (1993). He never explained why. Nobody who knew him needed him to.

Books and Reading

Jake read voraciously but narrowly. Piano scores, music theory, and biographies of composers -- Chopin, Debussy, Rachmaninoff, Gould, Argerich. He read about musicians the way Logan read about medicine: to understand how other people had done the thing he was trying to do, to find himself in their process, to confirm that the obsession and the sacrifice and the cost were not unique to him.

He did not read fiction. Fictional characters demanded empathy he couldn't always spare, and the unpredictability of a narrative he couldn't control -- not knowing what was going to happen, not being able to prepare for the emotional content -- was more stressful than pleasurable. He tried, occasionally, because Ava loved novels and left them on his nightstand with bookmarks at chapters she thought he'd connect with. He read them. He didn't finish most of them. He loved her for the asking.

Style and Appearance

Daily Uniform

Gray T-shirt. Basketball shorts or soft joggers. Whatever was clean, whatever was broken-in, whatever didn't require decisions. Jake's daily clothing was chosen by elimination -- what doesn't hurt, what doesn't pull, what doesn't have tags -- rather than by preference. The result was a consistent, unremarkable look that people read as "doesn't care about clothes" but was actually a highly curated sensory accommodation disguised as indifference.

He wore Logan's old Howard hoodie often enough that it became part of his silhouette. He also wore Logan's basketball shorts, which Logan had never gotten back and had stopped asking about.

Dressed Up

Jake dressed up under protest and with assistance. Ava chose his clothes for events because the decision fatigue of formal dressing exceeded his ADHD's capacity and the sensory demands of structured clothing exceeded his autism's tolerance. She found the soft blazers, the stretch-fabric dress pants, the shirts without scratchy collars. He wore them because she asked and because the result -- Jake Keller cleaned up, jaw sharp, shoulders set, eyes dark and steady -- was, by Ava's account, worth every minute of the negotiation.

Signature Items

His watch -- an Apple Watch that served as his seizure detection, his communication device (texting when speaking was too much), and his connection to Logan's FindMy location for years before they lived in the same city. It was medical equipment and emotional tether and the closest thing Jake had to a comfort object that wasn't a piano.

Sensory Preferences

Seeks Out

Quiet. Not silence -- quiet. The difference was critical. Silence was the absence of sound, which was its own kind of sensory input, an emptiness his brain filled with internal noise. Quiet was low-level, predictable sound: the hum of a radiator, rain on a window, a single instrument playing at moderate volume. Quiet gave his auditory processing something to hold without overwhelming it.

Dim, warm lighting. Overhead fluorescents were intolerable. Bright sunlight through uncovered windows required sunglasses indoors. Jake's preferred lighting was lamp-light, warm-bulb, low enough that his photosensitive migraines didn't activate but present enough that the room didn't feel like a cave. Julia had switched the bulb in his bedroom at the Westons' to a warm-tone without telling him. He noticed immediately. He didn't say anything. He didn't need to.

Temperature control. Jake ran cold -- not as dramatically as Charlie, but enough that he was always in long sleeves when other people were in T-shirts. The weighted blanket served double duty: pressure and warmth.

Cannot Stand

Sudden sounds. Doors slamming, objects dropped, car horns. The startle response was neurological, not psychological -- his body fired before his brain could assess the threat. Post-startle recovery could take minutes, the adrenaline lingering after the danger was identified as false. People who lived with Jake learned to announce themselves, to close doors gently, to warn before making loud sounds. The accommodation became invisible to everyone inside the house and startling to guests who didn't understand why everyone moved so carefully.

Layered noise. Multiple conversations, a TV and a radio, a restaurant at peak volume. His auditory processing couldn't filter -- everything arrived at the same volume, every sound demanding the same attention. Crowded spaces cost energy that was finite and took hours to replenish.

Fluorescent lighting. Same as Charlie but for different neurological reasons -- the flicker registered as a strobe, the hum as a persistent tone, and the combination was a migraine trigger reliable enough that Jake could time the onset.

Habits and Routines

Jake's routines were not preferences. They were architecture -- the structure that held his days together when everything inside was trying to come apart. Disruption to routine was not annoying. It was destabilizing, in the clinical sense, the same way removing a load-bearing wall was not an inconvenience but a structural failure.

He woke early. Not Logan-early, not by medical necessity, but by the body clock of a man who had learned in foster care that being awake before everyone else meant being prepared. He sat at the piano within twenty minutes of waking, often before coffee, the first sounds of the day coming from his hands rather than his mouth.

He sat in the same chair at every table. Back to the wall, facing the door, closest to the exit. At the Westons', this was established by October of the first year and never changed. At restaurants, Ava walked in first and let Jake choose the seat. Elliot stood behind him until he'd settled.

He peeled things. Potatoes, oranges, labels off bottles -- anything with a layer that could be systematically removed. It was a stim that looked like a habit and was actually his hands processing what his brain couldn't verbalize. Julia gave him potatoes when she sensed he needed to be in the kitchen without being asked to talk. She never told him why. He knew anyway.

His jaw did the thing. The slow grind, the clenching, the tension that lived in his mandible when his sinuses were packed or his head was loud or his body was done. Everyone who knew Jake read the jaw the way Logan read his Dexcom -- as a real-time data source. Jaw tight meant approach with caution. Jaw loose meant today was okay.

Comfort Items and Spaces

The piano. Any piano. The Kawai in the Weston house, the K-800 upright in his own home, the Steinway in the Juilliard practice rooms, the battered upright in the recreation center where Mr. Thompson first heard him play. The specific instrument mattered less than the act -- hands on keys, sound filling the room, his body and his mind in the only place they agreed.

The weighted blanket. Given to him by the Westons for Christmas. Used every night from that day forward for the rest of his life. The weight was not a luxury. It was the physical pressure that told his nervous system the world had edges and he was inside them.

Luke. Seventy-five pounds of yellow Lab who positioned himself against Jake's leg with the precision of a medical device and the loyalty of a person who had decided, without being asked, that this human was his job. Luke was not a service dog. He was better -- he was a dog who had chosen, and Jake, who understood what it meant to be chosen, never took it for granted.

Social Media

Jake did not have social media. He did not want social media. The concept of voluntarily broadcasting his life to strangers was so incompatible with everything Jake was that the suggestion, when Charlie made it, was met with a stare so flat and so prolonged that Charlie backed slowly out of the room.

He existed online only through other people's posts: Charlie's chaotic Instagram, Ava's curated professional presence, Clara's eventual accounts where "Papa" appeared in candid photos he didn't know were being taken. He never asked anyone to take them down. He never asked anyone to post them. He occupied the internet the way he occupied most rooms -- present, visible only to people who were looking, and completely uninterested in being the center of attention.

Hobbies and Interests

Piano. Piano was not a hobby. Piano was Jake's first language, his primary relationship, his survival mechanism, his art, his career, and his joy. Everything else was secondary.

Walking. Long walks, alone, in quiet places. Pre-accident-era Jake (before his late-life mobility decline) walked for hours -- through parks, through neighborhoods, along water. The walking was not exercise. It was sensory regulation: the rhythm of his feet, the predictable input of pavement under shoes, the forward motion that his brain interpreted as progress even when nothing else was moving.

Chess. He played online, anonymously, late at night when sleep wouldn't come. He was very good. He told no one.

Opinions and Hot Takes

Jake did not volunteer opinions. When he did, they arrived without cushioning, without preamble, and without the social softening most people used to make hard truths palatable. This was frequently mistaken for rudeness. It was not rudeness. It was a man who had a finite number of words per day and did not waste any of them on decoration.

He thought most contemporary classical composition was pretentious -- "sounds like someone dropped a piano down the stairs and called it art." He said this within earshot of a Columbia professor at a New Music Festival and did not apologize.

He thought Logan's color-coded packing spreadsheet was "a fucking spreadsheet, because of course." He thought Charlie's eleven-texts-per-minute energy was "a lot" and also the best thing that had ever happened to his phone. He thought Ava's novels were too long and told her so and read them anyway.

Pet Peeves

People who stood in the middle of sidewalks to have conversations. The sidewalk was a transit system. It had flow. Disrupting that flow to chat was, in Jake's assessment, an act of social violence that went unpunished only because society had not yet caught up to the severity of the offense.

People who played music or took phone calls on speaker in public spaces. The subway was not your living room. The café was not your office. Headphones existed. Use them.

People who touched him without warning. Not the same as his trauma-response flinch -- this was the everyday irritation of strangers who put a hand on his shoulder to get his attention, acquaintances who hugged without asking, well-meaning people who didn't understand that his body processed unexpected contact as a threat before his brain could downgrade it to a greeting.

"You should smile more." A sentence that made Jake's jaw lock and his eyes go flat in a way that communicated, without words, that the speaker had made a significant miscalculation.

The assumption that quiet meant unfriendly. Jake was quiet because quiet was how his brain worked. Quiet was not cold. Quiet was not hostile. Quiet was Jake conserving the energy that talking cost him so he could spend it on the people and the moments that actually mattered. The people who understood this got the best of him. The people who didn't got the jaw.

Guilty Pleasures

Chocolate. Any kind, any time, any amount. The desk bar. The emergency stash in the piano bench. The squares Clara brought him, smuggled from the kitchen like contraband, both of them pretending Ava didn't know.

Knowing the entire plot of Love Island and multiple seasons of Big Bang Theory through Charlie's commentary without ever having voluntarily watched a single episode of either.

The Anderson .Paak drum pattern he tapped on his thigh during practice breaks that he would deny to his death.

Long, hot showers. Not baths -- the standing (or later, the seated) stillness of hot water against his skin, the white noise of the stream, the enclosed space where sensory input narrowed to temperature and sound and nothing else. He took longer showers than anyone in any house he lived in and felt no guilt about it.

Skills Nobody Expects

He was funny. Devastatingly, surgically, catch-you-off-guard funny. The humor was not warm or inviting -- it was a scalpel, one precise observation that nailed the thing nobody else would say, delivered flat and moved on from before the room had finished processing it. People who expected the quiet guy to be humorless were unprepared for the moment Jake opened his mouth and the thing that came out was the funniest sentence anyone had heard all week.

He was extraordinary with children. The quiet intensity that adults found intimidating, kids found grounding. He didn't perform enthusiasm. He didn't talk down. He sat at their level, spoke to them directly, gave them his full attention, and treated their concerns with the same seriousness he brought to everything else. Clara and Emily didn't experience Jake as the difficult, guarded man the rest of the world saw. They experienced him as Papa -- steady, present, always there, and willing to sit on the floor for as long as it took.

He was a secret romantic. The man who communicated in four-word sentences and flinched at physical contact was also the man who remembered that Ava loved peonies and had them waiting without being asked. Who noticed that Elliot's favorite mug had chipped and replaced it with an identical one before Elliot registered the damage. Who left notes -- not love letters, just small pieces of paper in jacket pockets and lunch bags and piano benches that said things like "thought about you during Chopin" or "your hair looked good today." The romantic gestures were as quiet as everything else about Jake, which made them land harder. He showed love the way he showed everything: through observation, through action, through the accumulated evidence of a man who was paying attention to you specifically, always, even when you didn't know he was watching.

Trivia

His jaw was a barometer. Everyone who knew Jake read the jaw -- tight meant the day was hard, loose meant the day was okay, grinding meant his sinuses were packed or his head was loud. Logan, Julia, Charlie, Ava, Elliot -- they all tracked it the way medical equipment tracks vitals.

He peeled things when he needed to process. Potatoes, oranges, labels. Julia gave him potatoes when he needed the kitchen without the conversation.

He sat with his back to the wall at every table. Facing the door. Closest to the exit. Established at the Westons' by October. Never changed.

He played chess online, anonymously, late at night. He was very good. He told no one.

"Your clock is loud" was one of the first texts he ever sent Logan from the Weston house. Logan's reply: "It's louder when you're not here." This exchange was the entire Jake-and-Logan relationship in two sentences.

He stole Logan's basketball shorts and Howard hoodie. Logan never got them back.

The smell of rosin made him think of Clara.

He couldn't throw away a single one of Clara's drawings. Ava rotated them to prevent the house from becoming wallpapered in crayon. The ones near the piano stayed permanent.

Luke chose him. Jake, who understood what it meant to be chosen, never took it for granted.

The not-quite-smile -- the expression his face made when something good happened and his mouth didn't know how to respond to it fully. Charlie's eleven texts. Ava's hand in his. Clara asleep on his chest. The neighborhood of a smile, never the full address, but the people who recognized it knew what it meant.

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