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Ezra Cruz -- Preferences and Trivia

Ezra Cruz was the loudest person in every room he entered, and he knew it, and he'd built a career and a personality and an entire aesthetic around that volume. But the trivia of Ezra's life -- the actual preferences, the real comforts, the things he reached for when the performance stopped and it was just him -- told a different story than the swagger suggested. The man who named his cars and wore black and gold and could charm a room in two languages was also the man who made Raffie's lunches with handwritten notes tucked inside, who replaced alcohol with enough cafecito to concern his cardiologist, and who cried during the Father of the Bride speech at his sister Luna's wedding so hard that Charlie had to finish reading it for him.

Food and Drink

Ezra's food world was built in two kitchens: Marisol's in Ponce and the broader Miami Cuban-Puerto Rican fusion scene that shaped his adolescence. Food was cultural expression, family connection, and -- post-sobriety -- one of the few sensory pleasures that didn't come with a recovery cost. He ate with the same intensity he brought to everything else: fully committed, loudly opinionated, second helpings before the table had finished firsts.

Comfort Foods

Marisol's cooking anchored everything. Her arroz con pollo, her mofongo, her pasteles at Christmas -- these were the tastes that meant the world had not ended, that home still existed, that his mother was still standing in a kitchen somewhere making food that could hold him together when nothing else could. After Rafael's death in 2022, Marisol's kitchen became sacred ground in a way it hadn't been before. Ezra drove to see her more often than he admitted, and he always left with Tupperware.

Miami's food world layered on top: croquetas from the ventanitas in Little Havana, the Cuban sandwich from his spot on Calle Ocho that he maintained was the best in the city and would argue about until everyone at the table gave up, tostones and maduros and the thick, sweet cafecito from the walk-up windows that were open at 6 AM and never closed. The Miami food world was noise and heat and eating standing up on the sidewalk, and Ezra carried that energy into every meal for the rest of his life.

Go-To Orders

Cafecito. Always cafecito. Post-sobriety, Ezra replaced alcohol with Cuban coffee at a rate that alarmed everyone who loved him and delighted no one in the medical profession. He drank it throughout the day -- the small, thick, sweet shots from the ventanita in the morning, the café con leche in the afternoon, the espresso after dinner that Nina said would kill him and Ezra said would keep him alive. Charlie joked that the doctors would go to draw blood and find coffee instead. Ezra didn't deny it.

Before sobriety, he drank. After sobriety, he drank coffee. The substitution was not subtle and nobody pretended it was.

Cooking

Ezra could cook. Not as well as Marisol -- nobody cooked as well as Marisol, this was established fact -- but well enough that his kids ate home-cooked meals more nights than not, and well enough that Nina had been genuinely surprised, early in their relationship, to discover that the man who could barely organize his own schedule could produce a full arroz con gandules from memory. He cooked the way he played: instinctively, messily, loudly, with results that somehow worked despite the chaos of the process.

Will Not Touch

Anything bland. Ezra's palate was calibrated to Caribbean seasoning, and unseasoned food was a personal affront. He had once pushed away a plate at a fancy restaurant, looked at Charlie, and said "bro, this chicken died for nothing," and Charlie had laughed so hard his POTS crashed.

Food Hot Takes

The Cuban sandwich debate was real and ongoing and Ezra would not concede his position for any reason, including evidence. His spot on Calle Ocho was the best. Every other Cuban sandwich was a photocopy. He didn't care if you disagreed. He cared that you were wrong.

He also maintained that plantains were the most versatile food on earth and that anyone who hadn't tried them had no business having opinions about Caribbean food. This was delivered with the conviction of a man issuing a legal ruling.

Music

Ezra's musical taste was as broad as his personality: Latin jazz, reggaeton, salsa, hip-hop, R&B, classical trumpet repertoire, and whatever Nina was playing in the house that week. He listened to music the way he existed -- at volume, with his whole body, incapable of hearing a beat without his foot moving or his fingers tapping.

Guilty Pleasures

Boy bands. Specifically, early-2000s boy bands. NSYNC, Backstreet Boys, the works. Luna had introduced him to them when he was a kid and the grooves had imprinted permanently, and Ezra maintained that Justin Timberlake's vocal runs in "Gone" were "actually not bad, like, musically" with the defensive energy of a man who knew he was about to be roasted and was preparing his counterargument in advance.

Will Fight You About

That the trumpet was the greatest instrument ever built. Not the most versatile, not the most popular, the greatest. The saxophone was fine (he said this within earshot of Charlie regularly, on purpose). The piano was respectable (he said this within earshot of Jake, who ignored him). The trumpet was the voice of God, and Ezra would explain why with the energy of a revival preacher until someone physically removed him from the conversation.

Reggaeton was music. Real music. Complex, culturally significant, rhythmically sophisticated music. Anyone who called it "just beats" was going to get the full lecture: the dembow origin, the Jamaican dancehall roots, the Puerto Rican innovation, the pan-Latin cultural explosion. Ezra and Charlie were united on this front, and the combined force of two Puerto Rican musicians defending reggaeton's legitimacy was an experience that left opponents exhausted and slightly afraid.

Karaoke Song

"Suavemente" by Elvis Crespo. Without hesitation, without shame, with full salsa hip movement and audience participation whether the audience wanted to participate or not. He had performed this at Charlie and Logan's wedding reception, at CRATB album release parties, at Raffie's birthday when Raffie was old enough to be mortified, and at a random karaoke bar in Tokyo during a tour stop where he brought the entire room to its feet despite the language barrier. The performance was legendary. Recordings existed. Ezra was proud of every single one.

Colors and Textures

Colors They Gravitate Toward

Black and gold. The palette of a man who had an aesthetic and maintained it with the same discipline he brought to his sobriety. Black for the base -- leather jackets, fitted T-shirts, dark jeans -- and gold for the accent: the watch, the chain, the ring, the sunglasses frame. The combination read as confident without trying, expensive without advertising, exactly put-together enough to look effortless. It was, of course, not effortless at all. Ezra's "effortless" style required approximately forty-five minutes and Nina's opinion on at least one element.

He also wore deep reds -- the burgundy of a Puerto Rican sunset, the wine-dark of good leather -- that connected to the warmth of the culture he carried in everything he did.

Textures They Seek Out

Leather. Car seats, jackets, watch bands, the particular suppleness of well-conditioned leather that had been worn and warmed by a body. The Audi interiors were not accidental -- Ezra's cars were chosen, in part, for how the seats felt under his hands and against his back during long drives.

His trumpet's valves under his fingers. The precise mechanical click-and-return of well-oiled pistons was the tactile equivalent of a musician cracking their knuckles -- it meant the instrument was ready, which meant Ezra was ready, which meant the world was about to hear something.

Textures They Avoid

Cheap fabric. Polyester, thin cotton that pilled, anything that felt like it had been manufactured for a price point rather than a purpose. This was not snobbery. It was a man who had grown up without money and now had it and refused to wear anything that reminded him of the clothes he'd had when he couldn't choose.

Aesthetic Preferences

Sleek, modern, warm. Ezra's spaces looked like him at his best: clean lines, dark materials, gold accents, everything quality, nothing fussy. His Tribeca loft before the move to White Plains was a perfect reflection -- exposed brick, dark floors, the trumpet on its stand in the living room like a sculpture. The White Plains house with Nina softened the aesthetic without losing it: warmer tones, family photos on the walls, Raffie's drum kit in the corner of the studio, but still fundamentally Ezra -- curated, intentional, the space of a man who had fought to build a life worth looking at.

Scents

Comforting / Favorite

Marisol's cooking -- sofrito, garlic, the slow-building aroma of a Puerto Rican kitchen that had been simmering for hours. The brass-and-valve-oil smell of his trumpet, which was the smell of purpose, of practice, of the thing that had saved his life when nothing else would. New car leather -- specifically Audi leather, because Ezra's love for his cars was sensory as much as mechanical, and the interior of a new Audi was, for him, the olfactory equivalent of a fresh start. Cafecito brewing.

Associated with People or Places

Marisol's kitchen was garlic and sofrito and the particular humidity of a Florida kitchen with the windows open. Charlie was candles and something medicinal and the faint trace of whatever shampoo he'd used that day. Nina was the jasmine perfume she'd worn since their first date, a scent Ezra associated so completely with safety and home that he'd bought a bottle of it for the White Plains house just to spray it on a pillow when she traveled for work. Raffie was drumstick resin and grass and the particular smell of a kid who'd been running outside.

Cannot Stand

The smell of certain alcohols. Not all -- his recovery was specific. Whiskey was the trigger. The sharp, oaky, sweet burn of bourbon or whiskey hit his brain before his conscious mind could intervene, and the response was physiological: mouth watering, hands clenching, the craving arriving as a body memory rather than a thought. He avoided whiskey bars. He left rooms when bottles were opened near him. The people who loved him knew this and managed it without making it a production, which was the only way Ezra could tolerate the accommodation -- invisibly, without anyone treating him like he was fragile.

Shows, Movies, and Media

Ezra consumed media the way he consumed food: enthusiastically, without pretension, and with strong opinions delivered at volume.

Favorite Shows

Action movies. Fast and Furious (the entire franchise, no exceptions, don't argue with him about timeline continuity because he didn't care). Boxing matches and MMA fights, watched live, with enough yelling that Nina made him watch in the basement when the kids were sleeping. Sports in general -- he followed basketball and boxing with genuine investment and had once gotten into a twenty-minute argument with Peter about LeBron versus Jordan that resulted in both of them not speaking for a day and a half.

Comfort Rewatches

The Fast and Furious franchise. Not ironically. He identified with Dom Toretto's "family" philosophy with zero self-awareness about how on-the-nose that was, and nobody had the heart to point it out.

Movies They Love

Coco (in common with Charlie -- they watched it together, in Spanish, and both cried, and neither acknowledged the other's tears). Any boxing movie: Rocky, Creed, the lot. He watched Creed once a year and came out of it ready to fight somebody or hug somebody, depending on the scene.

Guilty Pleasure Media

Reality dating shows, in solidarity with Charlie. Their group watch sessions were legendary -- Charlie providing the emotional analysis, Ezra providing the strategic analysis ("bro, she's playing him, look at the body language"), and Jake sitting in the corner pretending he wasn't listening.

Books and Reading

Ezra was not a reader. He had the ADHD restlessness that made sustained reading feel like being asked to sit still in a room with no windows. He consumed information through podcasts, conversation, and YouTube. The one exception was biographies of musicians he admired -- specifically Miles Davis's autobiography, which he'd read three times, and which lived on his nightstand permanently. He highlighted passages. He quoted them. Charlie called it "Ezra's Bible" and wasn't wrong.

Style and Appearance

Daily Uniform

Black fitted T-shirt or henley, dark jeans or joggers, clean sneakers or boots. The gold chain. The watch. Sunglasses that cost more than some people's rent, pushed up on his forehead when he was inside. The look was casual but never accidental -- Ezra was always at least six out of ten and could hit ten in under an hour if the occasion demanded it.

Dressed Up

When Ezra dressed up, rooms recalibrated. The man understood tailoring the way he understood dynamics -- it was about fit, about how fabric moved with a body, about the difference between wearing a suit and inhabiting one. Black or deep charcoal, always, with gold accents. The trumpet pin on his lapel that Rafael had given him. Nina's hand on his arm. He looked, on those nights, like the man his father had been raising him to be -- polished, proud, carrying the family name like it weighed something.

Signature Items

The tattoos. "Con fuego y fe" on his inner left forearm. Travis's name on his wrist. The Puerto Rican flag somewhere visible at all times. The tattoos were not decoration. They were a map of who Ezra was and who he'd lost and what he believed, written on his body because his body was the only thing that had survived all of it.

The gold chain. Simple, understated by Ezra's standards, worn every day. Rafael's.

Grooming Rituals

Ezra's grooming routine was fixed enough to be ritual and flexible enough to be pleasure. Hair came first after the shower, while the curls were still wet: microfiber towel, leave-in conditioner, curl cream worked section by section with a Denman brush, then light gel or mousse to hold the shape. He kept a wide-tooth comb for wet detangling and a boar bristle brush for dry maintenance, and the microfiber towel in his bathroom was not for anyone else.

Skincare followed in the same order every time: cleanser, toner, serum, eye cream, moisturizer, teeth. The specific products rotated because Ezra paid attention to what his skin needed, but the sequence did not. He had normal-to-combination skin, wore sunscreen young because Marisol and Abuela Teresa had warned him what Miami sun did to brown skin, and treated grooming as maintenance, presentation, and grounding all at once.

His product philosophy was results over price logic. A $12 CeraVe cleanser could sit beside a $180 SkinCeuticals serum without contradiction. Fenty Skin could sit beside La Mer. Rizos Curls and Ceremonia belonged beside whatever high-end moisturizer his skin liked that season. He favored POC-owned and Latino-owned brands when they worked well, because products designed by people who understood his skin tone and curl texture often did the job better than products built around white defaults.

The band roasted him hardest for toner, eye cream, satin pillowcases, and the sheer number of brushes required by one head of hair. Ezra treated this as proof that they lacked vision. The only sign that something was truly wrong was skipped grooming: when Ezra compressed the routine, he was tired; when he abandoned it, the scaffolding was coming down.

Sensory Preferences

Seeks Out

Volume. Ezra's ADHD brain craved stimulation, and his baseline comfortable noise level was higher than most people's threshold for "too loud." He needed music playing, needed conversation, needed the ambient energy of a room full of people. Quiet made him restless. Silence made him anxious. The quiet of early sobriety -- the nights when the bars and the parties were gone and all that was left was a silent apartment -- was one of the hardest things he'd ever survived, and he'd replaced the noise with music and family and cafecito and the specific controlled chaos of raising children.

Speed. Driving fast, playing fast, talking fast, the ADHD engine that ran hot and needed output. The Audis were not just cars -- they were sensory regulation. The acceleration, the grip, the speed that was dangerous and controlled and entirely his, the one place where his need for intensity and his need for precision met cleanly.

Cannot Stand

Stillness without input. Waiting rooms, long lines, anything that required standing or sitting with nothing to do. His leg bounced. His fingers tapped. He checked his phone. He drummed on surfaces. He was not being impatient -- his nervous system was starving.

The sound of ice in a glass. Specific and sharp and carrying exactly the association you'd expect for a man in recovery.

Habits and Routines

Ezra was a night person who had been forced into morning-person architecture by fatherhood. Pre-kids, he was up until 2 AM and asleep until noon. Post-Raffie, he was up at 6:30 making lunches and didn't complain about it once, because being the father who was present for the morning routine was a choice he made every day with the same deliberateness he brought to sobriety.

He made Raffie's and Lia's lunches himself. Every day. With handwritten notes tucked inside. Raffie was old enough to be embarrassed by the notes and young enough to keep every single one.

He checked in with his sponsor before noon. Every day. The routine was invisible to everyone except Nina.

He drove when he needed to think. Not to a destination -- just driving, music on, windows down, the Audi eating highway while his brain processed whatever it couldn't process sitting still. Nina had learned that when Ezra said "I'm going for a drive," the correct response was "okay" and not "where?"

Comfort Items and Spaces

His trumpet. Not a specific one -- any of them. The instrument in his hands was the reset button, the thing that brought his brain from noise to signal. Playing was the only activity that reliably silenced the ADHD chatter, and the relief of that silence was as necessary as the music itself.

The driver's seat of whichever Audi he was currently in love with. La Bestia, Loba, La Madrina -- the name changed, the feeling didn't. The leather, the engine, the closed space where he was in control and moving forward. Driving was Ezra's meditation, and the car was his temple.

Raffie asleep on his chest. From the time Raffie was a newborn to the age where it became logistically absurd, the weight of his son against his ribs was the most grounding sensation Ezra had ever experienced. It was the physical proof that he had not destroyed everything. That something he'd made was alive and safe and choosing to sleep on him. Post-sobriety, in the early months when the cravings were loudest, he would hold sleeping Raffie and let the weight anchor him to the reason he'd stopped.

Social Media

Ezra's social media was curated performance -- which, for Ezra, was the same thing as genuine expression. His Instagram was polished: studio shots, performance photos, the Audis, the occasional family candid that Nina vetted before posting. He understood social media as a branding tool and used it accordingly. The public Ezra was charming, confident, aesthetically consistent.

What the public didn't see: the 3 AM Instagram story he posted and deleted of Raffie's drumming recital, because he'd been crying too hard to hold the camera steady and the audio was just him sniffling. Charlie screenshotted it before it disappeared. Ezra never asked him to delete it.

Hobbies and Interests

Cars. Not as transportation -- as passion. He knew the specs of every Audi in the current lineup, had opinions about engine configurations that he would share unprompted, and spent weekend mornings in the garage with a detailing kit and an expression that Nina described as "the way other men look at their wives." The cars had names. The cars had histories. The cars were members of the family, and Ezra would defend this position without irony.

Boxing. He trained, not competitively, as a physical outlet for the energy his ADHD generated and his sobriety required. The gym was the one place besides the stage where hitting something was acceptable, and the controlled violence of a heavy bag gave his body the intensity it craved without the destruction that used to follow.

Cooking Marisol's recipes for his kids. This was not a hobby in the casual sense. It was legacy work -- the deliberate act of making sure Raffie and Lia tasted their grandmother's food, knew their grandfather's culture, carried Puerto Rico in their mouths even if they grew up in White Plains.

Opinions and Hot Takes

The trumpet was the greatest instrument. Non-negotiable. Theological certainty.

His Cuban sandwich spot was the best. Evidence was irrelevant. The position was faith-based.

Reggaeton was art. Complex, culturally significant, rhythmically sophisticated art. Fight him.

Bland food was a moral failure. Season your chicken. He wasn't asking.

Pet Peeves

People who couldn't drive. Ezra, who named his cars and maintained them with the devotion of a man tending a garden, had zero patience for people who treated driving as a casual activity. Failure to signal, failure to merge properly, failure to maintain a reasonable speed in the left lane -- all of these were personal insults that Ezra narrated in real time, in Spanglish, at a volume that made passengers grip the door handle.

People who were fake. Ezra had spent years performing -- onstage and off, the swagger and the charm that hid what was underneath. He knew the difference between genuine warmth and its performance better than almost anyone, and people who were performing friendliness or performing concern or performing interest without the substance behind it made his skin crawl. He could spot it in seconds and he lost respect for it immediately.

People who offered him drinks after being told he was sober. Once was a mistake. Twice was disrespect. The calm, flat "I don't drink" he delivered the second time carried enough weight that most people never made it to a third.

Guilty Pleasures

NSYNC. The entire catalog. Luna's fault. Permanent.

Reality dating shows with Charlie. The strategic analysis was genuine. The emotional investment was genuine. The denial afterward was also genuine.

Detailing the Audis on Saturday mornings with the garage door up and Bad Bunny at a volume the neighbors could hear from three houses down.

Skills Nobody Expects

He was a present, intentional, extraordinary father. Not the fun dad (though he was that too) -- the dad who made lunches with notes inside. The dad who learned Raffie's seizure protocol by heart. The dad who showed up to every recital, every game, every parent-teacher conference, dressed like he'd just come from a magazine shoot and paying attention like the teacher was giving a briefing. People who knew Ezra's history -- the addiction, the near-fatal overdose, the years of destruction -- expected the fatherhood to be the part where he fell short. It was the part where he was best.

He cried at speeches. The man who could perform for twenty thousand people without a tremor came completely undone at weddings, graduations, and any event where someone he loved was being celebrated. Luna's wedding. Raffie's first recital. Charlie's Grammy acceptance speech. The tears were immediate, unstoppable, and accompanied by the kind of full-body sobbing that made his whole frame shake. He did not try to hide it. He just stood there, six-foot-two, tattooed, gold chain, crying like a man who had almost missed all of it and knew exactly how close he'd come.

Trivia

He named his cars. La Bestia, Loba, La Madrina. They were not vehicles. They were family. He spoke to them in Spanish. He apologized when he hit a pothole.

"Con fuego y fe" was tattooed on his inner left forearm -- his grandmother's words, inked at twenty-one. The phrase governed everything.

He checked in with his sponsor before noon every day. Even on tour. Even on holidays. The routine was invisible and non-negotiable.

Cafecito replaced alcohol with a one-to-one intensity that concerned his cardiologist and amused everyone else. Charlie: "They'd go to draw blood and find coffee instead."

He cried at Coco in Spanish with Charlie. Neither acknowledged the other's tears. Both knew.

Miles Davis's autobiography lived permanently on his nightstand. Highlighted, dog-eared, quoted. Charlie called it "Ezra's Bible."

The 3 AM Instagram story of Raffie's drumming recital -- posted, deleted, screenshotted by Charlie before it disappeared. The audio was just Ezra sniffling.

Raffie's lunch notes. Every day. Kept by Raffie in a shoebox under his bed that he thought nobody knew about. Ezra knew.

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